Teardrops.

I'm very stress now. I cried. Hopping it will decrease the stress, which i think it helped a bit.

Stress of school work. Exam is coming. Damn! i promise myself that I'll never study last minute if i pass this year. Lord please let me pass. It is all i need.

Another reason why i cried (attacked by satan), I actually sees someone profile. She's pretty no doubt. I just cannot stop thinking all the negative thoughts. I know im not suppose to. I know everyone has got their own past. I shouldn't bother since its your past. But its hurting my heart. I know i should be looking at the present and the future. You're mine now, i know. I'm sorry dear. I guess its just all the stress that I'm going through. =( I didn't mean to see her profile, but all those thoughts just came. And its making me crying non-stop. I dont know why. I guess im just releasing stress.

Was actually planning to tell you how i feel when you came back home later. But i just received your call. You're upset because of some stuffs of yours. =( Sorry to hear that too dear. Well i guess since you're sad, maybe I'll just talk to you about this some other day. I really don't want to make you mood worse. Talk to me and I'll listen and comfort you always k. =) You know i will always be there for you. *Hugs & Kisses*

Anyway, only Jesus will understand how i feel. After praying i feel better now. Sorry bi if I'm a sensitive, cry baby, emotional and thinks a lot type of girl, but this is just how i am. =) I Love You.

21 - 04 - 10

Today is a very very good day, thank you Lord for everything. I'm really grateful. Besides our great father, i really wanna thank Ben, my secretary, because you really made my day. Thanks baby! Hehe.


Why would i say he is my personal secretary? I'm really impressed by you. He made 2 appointments for my dental check-up (for braces), woke up at 8.30am to wake me up. LOL. Drive me around to find my dentist until 11.30am. He's totally starving. I couldnt forget the face he was eating his rice AND my mee. == Baby, i wont let you become that hungry again, kinda hurt my heart and i dont want that to happen to you again. So thanks baby for helping me to find these dentists. (Seriously, i dont think many guys would do this ^^)

Okay, secondly, i have got a great gift today. Hehe. Its a new PHONE!!! AAAAHHHH!!! celebrate and shout with joy!! hahahaha~! He actually wanted to get me I-phone, but since I-phone latest 4g is coming out soon, we both really feel its not so worthy to get 3gS. Besides, if I really want iphone, i might as well wait until 4g to come out, which is gonna take MONTHSSSS~ haha!! So, we took HTC LEGEND instead. Its okay baby. Im gonna really take good care of MoMo. hehe!


Im just so so so so so so happy today!! Everything just worked out so perfectly fine! Thank you Lord, thank you so much!! Today is a very memorable day~I'm so happy till I actually cried just now. Feel so good. =)

Hm, gotta go now. Tomorrow have to wake up at 6am then go jogging with Lia-Lia. Hehe. Oh, I so gotta start PLAN C for studying!! May 11 is the day of my first paper!! So stress and worried! But i know God will always be with me! And I WILL PASS with LIA LIA too!!! *Amen* Study study study after jogging tomorrow! Time is passing so fast and it feels like there is no more time for me to waste~ AAhhh.. ok lar, ciao friends~ haha *yippie* *doink doink doink*

Stress stress stress~~

(This picture taken during Babay's nightstop in Kch. Miss my straight hair and very miss my Babay)

Hello peeps. =) Today is the most boring wednesday ever. I guess its because my baby boy did not off today and off tomorrow. Humph, I went to the library this morning, studied a bit and then went back home after branch with baby boy. Played fb for a few hours and then rest. Sleep till 7pm n(if not wrong), had dinner and then here i am. Sitting in front of my precious Sunday blogging. Well i did copied some notes from Cecilia ok. =P At least i did something.

Today i have a very choc-ko-lat feel.

Hehe. Called my teeth teeth to go buy liao, but i think i wont be able to eat it tonight la, since he is going out with his brothers to Empuru~ But i really hope he can drop by my house and pass it to me der... so i wont be boring lo when i study tonight~ (understand what i mean liao ho? Reach here 10.30pm ha. hahaha)

Hm, a bit emo today. Cause i think im really stress. I went to Lia-Lia's profile. Check out her photos. And i saw a picture of her with Amelia and their Popo. Like the usual me, I cried and prayed for them luu.. I know God will listen to me, especially that im crying, our Father sure also sam tong for us de. I know our Father. When he closes our door, he'll always open another small window for us. You're right lia lia, He will know what to do and for our exams too. =)

I put u nice2 de pic oh (actually wanna put the pic i taller than u de ba) haha. C im so good de. wahahahaha

Oh, just a small update on what happened on 7/4/2010. Check it out!

Guess where this is =P

*Crabbie Crabbie*

Tah dah!! Come on, its so obvious! Kota Kinabalu!!

Haha, surprise surprise!! A day trip in KK. My most memorable day. Hehe. Everything is so worth it.

Thanks baby and thanks Babay. Even though we didnt meet in KK, but i can feel your heart already. =) Im gonna treasure and appreciate each time we have a chance to meet,because we're in different place now. Meeting each other is not easy. Sisters forever =)

When Friendship Ends..

Howdy people! =) Ah.. finally I have the time to blog. You guys know de lah i'm sooooo "busy" =P Things are going fine in Kuching~ Living quite a happy life~ Love it actually. Hm.. Lately i'm very into "friendship" this topic. I've been thinking about it too.

Friendship.. It is always happy when it just started, everything feels so good and smooth cause we know that our friend is always at our back (backing us up). But when it ends, tears can come out non-stop, you can even think about it every day of that friend, and honestly for me, i think it can be compared to breaking up with a bf. It just feels sorta the same.

Sometimes i asked myself, is all friends good at first and always end up fighting or ignoring each other? Or that friends is suppose to be like this, thats why we all have never ending friends? There are so many types of friends (for me) :
-Really really good friend that can text msg everyday
-Friends that used to be very good and suddenly not contacting (usual)
-Friends that used to be best friend and just start ignoring you
-Friends that think you back stabbed her
-Friends that pushes you away
-Friends that act fake in front of you?
-Friends that you can see being fake to each other
-Friends that misses friend when knowing no one misses her

Hm, now i think i know, why do people think that other people change. Actually, for me, maybe that person didnt change. Maybe because the gap between each other becomes bigger and suddenly when they saw that person, they think the person change. Or maybe the person did change, or I should say just being themselves when we thought they are actually different. There is no right and wrong between friends right? Because i think they are just being who they are. Maybe it is I who always think the wrong way? -shrug-

Ah~ I'm talking crap already. Goodnight.