A Thousand Words..

More than a thousand words i feel that i need to express since last night. Life has become too dramatic. Argh.. how can i ever start? Is this decision even right? Should i even come back? Things doesnt seem to work well anyhow. So complicated.

I guess.. things cannot turn back. Not even cannot turn back, its better we dont think of it. Sometimes, its really heartache. See you cry , i feel like crying.. Haih.. Nvm la.. Dont know what can i do now. So stucked in the middle. Heartache to hear u say like that. Heartache to see all this happen. I think Kuching is still the best place. I guess the next time i come back will be another 6 months. Sometimes i feel so pointless to come back already. Dont like to hear/see all these. Tired. I just wish someone can understand everything . Hope someone can know what is happening. Hope there is someone that I can pour everything out.

Its okay. I will just let things go its own way. K la. Enough. Say so much also useless, say so much also pointless. So many things keep roaming in my mind, so many things.. =/ Why feel so? Sigh. Hate this feeling so much.

The Christmas Month

It has been a month, feels like a year to me now.. So many things had happened and it feels so dramatic. I am currently in KK now "enjoying" my holiday. Feels like a thousand words that i need to say but I just didn't know where to start.

Okay, just telling it briefly bout what happened in November. As usual, study study study, and then working working working..Hang out with friends and of course have fun with friends too. After my birthday, we celebrated Cecilia's birthday. Haha. That was an unforgettable one. We actually had Durian on that day. Overall, only 1 word to describe = FUN.

A few days after that, I went to Sibu. Guess for what? Work lo. Now ar, money is so important that we cannot live without, BUT, of course we should not see money as a very very "BIG" thing. You know what? Things that can be bought by money cannot consider as something that is valuable. This is because valuable things cannot be bought.Right? There are so many example around us that we can see. Most obvious, our life. Btw, love is too oh..

Talking about life, I had a car accident. =.= I'm lucky that I'm safe. I'm really thankful that i can be here typing, or else..... LOL. Well, i came KK on the 5Th and today is the 5Th day here. On the 2ND day, i banged my brother's car. Family members called and of course scolded me. Things were not going well and honestly I'm quite unhappy about that. The good news is.. everything is FINALLY settled and i can sleep well without thinking about it. No doubt that i need to pay a certain amount.. yes yes even though purse is bleeding, but its worth it to learn a lesson and my life is totally more than that amount.. wahahhahaa.... =P

Ah, just to let you guys know, I'm staying in Esther's house. Reminds me of last time when i used to stay at her house too. So many memories that i cannot forget. The good old days of BEC? Where is it now? Sometimes, when things changed, it can never go back. I guess that is something that is undeniable. Oh, thanks so much dear, lou mou, lou dao let me sleep over here. Really gam dung and appreciate oh.. =) Babay, thanks so much too oh cause I'm gonna sleep at your house soon too.. Haha.. I love both of you so much you know that?

Today, feeling quite disturbed. Don't know why. Ahh.. don't wanna talk about it or think about it. Thinks too much never do good anyway. Feels like everything is settled but somehow this feel still lingers in me. =/ Oh, hundred thanks to Benny for everything. You know what i mean if you're reading this. =P Sometimes all i need is just an ear. Thanksie. Last but not least, a million thanks to God. Because without him, i wouldn't be here, without him everything is not possible, Thanks Lord. =P Luckily parents did not get angry at me. Just thanks so much to everyone. See, i still feel like a thousand things i wanna say!! But just couldn't start. Maybe words are hard for me to express. So I'd better stop now. Tata~