Do You Know?

=/ It has been awhile.. If I'm not wrong, it has been about 1 year and 3 months we did not talk. We used to be so close, so friend. Now you're leaving, i didn't even see you. I guess there is so many things that you didn't know. I still remember our last conversation in msn. A very harsh ones.

Do you know? I can remember it clearly, everything that we had done and gone through before. I of course still remember how we met. We were just Form 1. In just a glimpse, we're 19 now. I wish that we were back like old times. Its very sad that time cannot turn back.

Do you know? I had a crushed on you. I really liked you a lot. I really really really do. I guess its just not our fate? yet? -shrug- You're really good.

Do you know? There is not one time with you that i wont laugh and smile. Seriously, you brighten up my 5 years high school life. Thank you. At least i was happy. You gave me so much nice memories. =)

Do you know? That you're in my "Regret never be with guy" list? LOL. I bet you never know this. (You're the first in my list)

Do you know? That i wanted to tell you a million times of sorry? I know i hurt you in some ways. Im really sorry. Sorry that i was angry at you when you "annoy" me. But..do you know that I was so happy after you "annoyed" me? ( I went back home and cant stop smiling just because of what you did). I acted so fierce. =/ i don't know why. I'm shy i guess.

Do you know? I cried like hell when i made u angry? =P I still remember i wrote my Ex bf name on your yellow bag.. haha.. =X

Do you know? I cried even more like hell when we start arguing and nearly we cannot be friends? And i cried more more more like hell when we're not speaking to each other anymore? I bet you don't know about this too. My heart hurts so so much.

Do you know? Elliot Yamin - Waiting For You is the song that will remind me of you, and I cried every time i listen to it.

Do you know? I need to thank you. I really need to. You're the one who i called when i was sad everytime. You're always there for me. But.. I never realized. Until now.. Its too late. I gotta admit, there has been a lot of restrictions between us too. Eg. My boyfriend. LOL. >< *Slap Slap Myself*

Do you know? I get so jealous when i see you with your new friend. When i used to be sitting next to you every lesson, played with every time, eat with you in class, do our homework together,take picture together.. and now.. its her. I guess she replaced me.

Do you know? How much i wanted to talk to you.. But i never have the courage to do so. I wanted to tell you, you look good in IS night. =) Still. until now i never did tell you.

Do you know? I'm quite sad that i never went to Ren Ai to meet you. I thought, it would be best not to see you since you hated me. After chatting with Eunice, I felt better. Finally i texted you. Thank god you replied. I'm happy =)

Do you know? I'm just waiting for this one last chance.. for us to get back like how we used to be. I know you might think its impossible or what, i don't know. But.. I'll pray to god every night and i know there will be this chance again. I hope you're doing good now that you're in some place studying for your future. Really hope that everything goes well for you in your new life. =)


I guess its just all my problems. I think too much. Now that all my friends is leaving KK, and I'm gonna be left alone in KK. (Just being sarcastic). I just cant make up my mind. I know i wanted to leave KK so so so so badly. But there's always something pulling me back. I always wanted to be independent somewhere away. I always wanted to go somewhere that no one will know me and i can start a new life. But.. I never can do it. Most of the reason is my boyfriend. If anyone is reading this, I know what you're thinking. I must be stupid. No man.. No.. I tried.. But i cant..

I met Alycia today, I told her about Pine. She said she nearly went into Pine, but she did not, and she's going to HELP in KL. Aww man. I want to go KL and twin to England. ARGH!! I really wanna leave KK.. Do something different.. Do things by myself.. I'm just so pathetic.. I cant even go.. LOL.. I better stop writing.. Its too much!! =X