Hey .. Its June already!! Time passes so fast right? I couldnt believe it myself too that its really been this long already. Ben and I are already in the 6th month.That is fast right? It was just like yesterday when we just got together. Hm, actually, I'm not feeling very happy today. So i decided to blog. I realized that i only blog when I'm sad, or when im happy.In the morning i felt pretty good. But i guess mood changes. I'm kinda down now. My sister called. She wants me to learn how to pay income tax and you know, all those li li dat dat stuffs? At first i was okay. She wanted me to learn. But here comes the part that changes everything.
She said, "how can you be a lawyer if you don't know all these?" , "do you know that lawyer has to do all these stuffs?" , "LAWYER LAWYER LAWYER". OKAY OKAY! i get it i get it. I started feeling, "law". Is it really me? I know that i always wanted to be a lawyer. I know it. It has got to be lawyer. But why does my heart feels this way when it is not me saying it. Weird. Then i hanged for a sec. And now im all confused about this whole Law thingy and Me.
I started to analyse, why why why? I thought i always wanted it. Then i started realise, i guess its because of that 1 year training in KL that I need to go after my degree and the "things to do" which are like as high as mountains?? I guess i just missed my boyfriend too much. =/ I know i know, what you guys are thinking, "Hello Celina! you still got another 3 years to go and you dont even know whether you will pass your year 1 or not! WAKE UP!". Right? I know that too okay. And being a lawyer, it feels like i have a lot a lot a lot to do!! But then *snap* i just need to become a more successful lawyer then I am going to order people to do it. Not me. LOL. Thanks Lia. Its just that, maybe i got carried away. So my fault for thinking that far.
Then, here comes the part that worsen my mood.
She wanted me to pay my own road tax and insurance for myself! I was like.. @_@ "you know i don't have money". Well, she replied, you got to have your own responsibility, and i will pay half for you. Okay, "i will pay half for you", WOW!! that really BRIGHTENS my day! How the heck am i going to get even half of it? =.= My money in the purse only left RM100, and i will only get my salary NEXT MONTH! which is JULY! =.= Thats not all, i still have to pay for my bloody broadband service that is slow and lag, my own freaking expenses, including my car fuel. This is just horrible! I never feel so broke before~ Please god, please please please, HELP ME! Sending an S.O.S so that my Father receive it.But now, after a few hours (after paying the income tax that my sis want me to "learn"), hm.. I realized that I tend to forget something very important, that is God wants us to be happy and to be joyful everyday. And what i did was not doing what God wants us to do. But now i totally understand. I shouldnt think too much. Right? About the road tax and insurance. I guess I'll just borrow from my hubby, and pay him back slowly when i have enough money. I shouldn't sit here and be sad about whats happening, instead i should start thinking on how to solve my problems and be happy about it! Im sure God has prepare everything for me and i should be thankful for everything now. (At least i still have RM100 right? =P) About my studies, Im gonna do it with all my heart leaving me NO regrets. But of course im going to give myself 1 trial. In other words, if i fail this time, im giving another attempt. If i fail twice in year 1, i stop. I'll go for Gemologists. xD And, about the KL CLP thingy. Cecilia said i can actually study in kuching, and go to KL just for the exams. Sounds perfectly great. And i believe, that my relationship with Ben, wont get easily influenced, ruined, or spoiled. We gotta have trust between each other right? That is how me n Ben is gonna work out, and it will turn out perfectly fine. I know it.
Baby I Love You ok. =) i know you got migrain headache now and your head cant move because you sprained your neck in gym =P and you probably wont be reading this because you are on the bed laying down sweetly. Well even if you're not, you just wont come reading my blog all of a sudden. So yea. I just wanna let you know. I will always be there for you when you need me. And our love will get stronger and stronger each day. Thanks so muchie. Hehe =)Conclusion of my blog today, I really need to be thankful for what is happening on me and stop complaining, stop being not satisfy at everything. Just like our pastor said last week. I must believe that good things will happen to me today and everyday!! I just need to be happy, joyful and stop those worrying! Worrying does no good to us anyway. So yeah! Im all sunshine now. Well i guess, thats about it. Oh, one more, I was just looking through my facebook. I saw Esther's pictures. May god be with her and boss. I can see that she's really happy. I guess .. I just need to stop thinking all these. We all have our own life now, and mine is as great as anybody else! As for Bianca, dont worry, Father will always be with you and Alvin too hor. Just do what you always do and be happy!! =)
I love you guys so much, and not one day i have forgotten about you two (B.E.C). K lar. Im off to work now. Ciaoz people. XoXo.
